Decisions

I never realized that that stupid decision would ever hurt me so badly. I didn't realize the discomfort it would bring. I feel like I've lost my best friend. The person who I could talk to about almost anything. I could talk to him easily as well. And yet I can't talk to him about this. I have a constant ache it feels like where my heart is. I don't like this feeling. But yet I'm the one who put myself in this situation. There's nothing I can do to change that, except regret it. But that's just something I'll have to live with, regret. And wonder what could have happened if I actually would have thought things through.